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From: "Tatiana N. Delatorre" <tdelatorre@fc.bethany.edu>
Date: Tue, 23 Feb 2010 08:59:59 -0800
To: Tatiana N. Delatorre<tdelatorre@fc.bethany.edu>
Subject: Slacker.
My homework has gotten to the point where I write down my assignments and then need a nap.
I think I am burned out. And I am trying to pray about before I spend more money on applications, but I really think I need a break before getting my Masters.
A nice break, maybe 6 months to a year. Working and coming home and realizing that there is nothing due the next day. I also want to crave learning. It's like when I was younger and told my parents over dinner I didnt want to, could NOT swim one more lap or else I would scream. I took a year off, did water polo instead and then missed swimming those laps like no one's business.
I want that again with learning. Right now my masters would be a chore, I would do below level work because I would be tired and honestly I know I havent been even as diligent in the application process because of how stretched thin I am right now!
The perfectionist in me screams that taking a break means failure to balance and succeed and who doesnt want a Masters degree at 22 or 23?! I need to have a really cool answer when people ask "what are you doing after graduation?" and I am scared of thier reactions if I say "i have no clue and frankly I am too exhausted to care."
So a year of just working and maybe interning sounds amazing. Im gonna keep praying and asking God to open doors and shut others and make it so obvious. Santa Cruz, Florida or Hawaii. A year break in any of those places has both positive and negative aspects for me.
Tatiana Delatorre
Socials Director
Bethany University Student Government
Cell: 407 489 5227
Fax: 831 439 9983