So its been a couple of crappy beyond crappy weeks. Too much drama at school and within the school itself. I love this place, its been my home for 4 years and I obviously care about it because I have worked here, "led" here, studied here and lived here. But thats the thing, when I see something wrong and I care about the place I will want to change it. Being as involved in almost every aspect of the school and seeing it from all sides I have been drained to the limit. I wish I could write about it here but I dont even know where to begin. I did learn however, that according to Sue, I "fight for a cause that is important to me yet am able to be diplomatic in my aproach". This means a lot. I know I am passionate, that is how God made me. I also know I am a people pleaser. The two combined make for a tired tatiana. I am a revolutionary. I am a Phenomenal Woman.
But...I am probably getting the worst grades I have ever gotten in my life this semester. And in a way, I dont care. (right now I have B's...and one C. so dont worry I am not FAILING). I think after Banquet I will just power through and pull them up to mostly A's..but we will see. Right now my brain is fried and I just want to make centerpeices and pick out appetizers and laugh with my new friends and go to work and read books.
On a better note..and the reason for the title of this post...It is a beautiful day today and here is why:
-I am getting a computer (a desktop mind you..i have no idea where its gonna go hahaha) loaned to me frm the IT dept!!!! this means I can pull all nighters!!! (college students..dont complain about having to do this. When the SILC lab closes at 12 and u dont get to start ur hw till midnight you end up screwed! you are blessed with your computers lol) I am so glad that I make friends with people that work here haha!
-I officially am able to live on campus this summer!!! (this has been a MAJOR stresser the past few days bc my boss told me a few weeks ago that they are cutting back on budget and were not gonna have me working here..which means i have to move back to FL ONE DAY after graduation! not fun!)
-I got my trackball fixed yesterday for FREE. this was a huge blessing.
-I got a banquet dress lent to me from Lindsay. and Julie. So i have two choices! and dont have to spend money!
-I really like a boy. we hold hands and its fun and yet not serious and we talk on the phone and im loving life right now because its not "when are we getting married..what are we doing after graduation...are we breaking up...omg omgomg so serious" its..."hey i like you, you like me and lets talk and talk and see where this goes and lets fix your heart a little bit because lets face it its still broken".
-I have been wearing almost all sundresses for the past few days because its been gorgeous outside. sundresses and sitting in grass and picking flowers and getting brown.
-New friends. Old friends. I realize sometimes as they are all laughing together and I stop and look around that I love them and they love me.
I am happy. Relieved. Still burnt out like no other but its ok because today is a beautiful day :)