lindsay is leaving bethany. Monday is her last day and then she gets flown to LA for a nanny job with some producer who is going to pay her 800 a weekend. she has a place to live with erin and elizabeth and is so excited.

i am soooo happy for her. today, though, she made me think. because she just kept telling me to do the same. she said i could live with them, get an awesome nanny job like her and elizabeth where i get paid to travel all over (like elizabeth..who does that? gets paid to go to london and israel to just, scope out the place before the family gets there?!) and live it up and get financially secure.

and honestly, it sounds amazing. but right now, the problem isnt having no choices, its having too many. i seriously keep getting these amazing offers and choices and i just want to pick one. im tired of this in between.