--> I have also been trying to sell my car. People are very flakey and its very frustrating. This goes the same for Scotts Valley parents who don't pay their nannies. Rude.
--> This move is stressful and I am really worried for my first month that I will be living in Orlando. Someone brought up if these were maybe doors being shut and maybe I am not supposed to be going there at all. As they were talking I was trying not to show my own doubts or fears because trust me, that goes through my head all the time. But time is ticking and it's at the point that even IF it was the wrong decision I kinda am stuck with it because where else am i going to go? It also bothered me because I need all the support I can get right now, but because of all the stressors I just. Don't. Know. I kept thinking this summer "if only I can just get there and then it will all be ok" but now I am realizing that it's not. Life for me isn't ever NOT stressful, especially financially. This person who was telling me all the "closed doors" made it a point to say how they thought this was the easy way out, and that life isn't always going to hand me everything and how I might never get a "vacation from life" like this. First of all, when has anything ever just been handed to me? I know people work a lot harder than me to make it, but trust me, I have earned my share. I could go on about this but that hurt the most. That someone would think I was choosing the easy way out. This move is stressful and emotional and even once I get there it won't be easy.
And even IF it was easy all around. EVEN IF the move was paid for, my car was being shipped to FL and I had money in my savings account, don't I deserve that at least once? This whole talk was coming from someone who has never had a bill in their life. And I think what hurt the most was that I already have doubts, I am afraid, I am sad, I am stressed. I need encouragement even if my decision was to move to Nebraska and live on a goat farm.
--> Venting aside, I may have found my dream job. No joke. I want to write and be in the journalism field right? But I want to do it for something with a bigger cause. I want to expose and question and make people think. So one of my favorite magazines, RELEVANT is a christian publication, which normally I don't like. It's not that I am against Christian writing or magazines but lets face it, how often do they really make you think? Its always the same big haired blonde wives talking about how they only let their kids watch christian cartoons or something. Not applicable to me.
But this magazine (check it out here please!!! you will love it) really focuses on the 20 something, modern view on Christian spirituality. They emphasize digging deeper into the stuff we have been taught our whole life. They have VARIOUS points of view on politics, the arts, social justice, culture etc. They even have a branch off publication that only focuses on the social justice aspect of Christianity, called Reject Apathy. There they focus on five main pillars of injustice: poverty (domestic homelessness as well as extreme global poverty and its effects), preventable disease (waterborne illnesses, AIDS, maleria etc), Loss of Innocents (explores human trafficking, child soldiers etc), Unjust war (situation in the Congo, genocide in Rwanda etc) and lastly creation care (environmentalism as a way to see our relationship with what God created for us and how we should take care of it).
Whew, now that I just advertised for them..the point is that as I was looking on their website and thinking about how awesome they are, I had the curious thought of how cool would it be to work for them. Then I scrolled to the bottom and low and behold..guess where they are located? ORLANDO freaking FLORIDA.
Crazy.
So I emailed someone and sent my resume. Simple.